ay, fuck you.
The majority of us have fucked up parents. If your my peer is highly likely that at least 1 of your parents is a fuck up. They probably fucked up your life too. Whether through addiction, abuse, abandonment or all of the above. But guess what? That’s still your parent. Try as you might, you will not wake up tomorrow to another set of parents. It is not our duty as children to approve of the choices our parents make. Its not even our duty to love them through those choices. Our only job is to accept them for who/what they are and move the fuck on..with or without em. As we get older a lot of us choose to resent our parents for the pain they caused us as children, hate them, and refuse to acknowledge them. Trust me when I tell you that you only hurt yourself. Your own wings are shackled by your grudge and anger. You can never be free because you carry the weight of your past on your back. Let go. Accept your past, acknowledge the pain, and let go. My father did a lot of fucked up things durirng my childhood and really fucked me up mentally. But I am an adult now and its my responsibility to shape my adulthood, not his! He is who he is. He’s not going to change. Do I like it? No. Do I love him? Yeah. Do I expect anything from him? Not a bit. He is who he is, I accept it and I look forward to nothing else. I don’t have deep conversations with him, I don’t spend a lot of time with him. I don’t even call him Daddy. But I accept him and I have brief and casual conversation with him and I allow him to be in my presence. Why? Because if it makes him feel better about the person he was/is and if it helps him get through life..WHY NOT?! And being that I accept the person he is it makes it that much easier to not get hurt or angry when he fucks up yet again. Eh, that’s Pops for ya. Im still fucked up from my past but im molding my own future. Im the driver this go round and its up to me to make the best of this road trip, crazy and all. So do me a favor. Stop being angry. Stop holding on. Stop resenting. Let go. Accept. Forgive. Move forward. You don’t gotta allow em in your future, but please let go of the past. And hey..if nothing else..had they not been a fucked up you wouldn’t be who you are. So send em a thank you ; ) Unshackle your wings. Be free. Fly, baby, fly. Peace.
